Reassessing my intensions

I started the journey to a more healthy life in 2009 and transformed my take on food and nutrition in 2010. Everything as I knew it changed for me. It was all a part of the journey:

  • Food prep
  • Portion control
  • Food choices
  • Balancing macronutrients 
  • Rearranging schedules
  • Planning workouts
  • Moving more 
  • Eating less (crap)
  • Learning what’s in the food we eat
  • How to deal with injuries
  • Coming back from surgeries

There are more facets to this lifestyle, but you get the idea.  There are levels to this life, if you are to maintain it. 

So here we are. I have not kept up my end of the bargain. After my last surgery in September, I have not physically or mentally recovered fully. Yes, I’ve pretty much healed and the scars are fading, but I lost something important along the way, I stopped  making time for food prep, working out and watching what food I put in my body. Dare I say, I stopped caring.

My weight has dramatically increased since the end of last summer and I’m struggling to get a handle on the problem. To my defense ( if there is one), I have scheduled my time to within an inch of its life with outside activities. I teach more fitness classes (yeah, bizarre, right) I started back to night classes to finish a program is started a few years ago and I’m also studying for another fitness certification. I still have a career that is very demanding and requires being on call, working off hours and studying to stay ahead of changing technologies.  AND we got another dog.

With all of that, I’m always tired and I don’t get enough sleep to ever feel rested. 

As I type these words, I wonder how it ever got to this point, how I got so busy and became this person I barely recognize. I so look fat, none of my clothes fit anymore. I saw a photo yesterday that someone had taken of me from the back and I almost cried. It’s so bad, I don’t wear my yoga pants as pants anymore and I’ve taken to wearing sweatpants everyday. Part of it is personal family issues, part of it is trying to overachieve, part of it is financial, part of it is fear of not completing something, part of is feeling isolated.

I’m not sure where I’m going with this post, I just needed to dump these words somewhere, even if I’ve not said them all outloud before now.
I hope writing is as cathartic as everyone makes it out to be. We shall see.

Good Friday: He did it to save me

Today is a special day on the Christian calendar and I wanted to drop a quick post to say, “I’m glad He did it for me!”.

Life is so complicated. We live in a time where hate and violence abound. If you’re not careful, the images you see and the words your hear will begin to turn on you; infect you, harden you, change you. Isn’t it great to have a savior, that through it all, my sins; known and unknown, spoken and thought are all washed away by the BLOOD. There is power in the Blood, in knowing that I’m worth something; I’m worth saving. Even though I may be unpopular, unconventional, and even unworthy of such a sacrifice, He still did it.

If I think times are hard and the pressure of the racism and xenophobia and sexism and violence are difficult to get from under or free yourself from, that is NOTHING compared to what HE suffered on this day, oh so many years ago.

If you’re not a believer in Christ, I respect that, but for me and mine, we are happy to say it and show it. I think it’s good to have a compass, something that you believe in that’s bigger than yourself. So many of us thing we are the end all, be all and I have chosen not to be that vein or self-center. Knowing that there is something greater than myself gives me something to look to, to work towards. I am a work in progress.

As we prepare for the gift of The Resurrection, I’d like to take this time to thank the Lord for the sacrifice. He thought I was worth saving.

I made instructor of the quarter at 12th street gym

When you love what you do, it’s never work.

 

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Be sure to check out my indoor cycling classes at 12th Street Gym:

  • Tuesday and Thursday 5:45PM
  • Friday 6:30AM

Get there by 5:20PM to be sure you get a seat! It fills up FAST!

 

 

Back to School for Web Design

In 2012, I started in the University of the Arts continuing studies certificate program for web design and development. After several curriculum changes and time commitments taking precedence, I stopped. Earlier this year, I decided to look into what I needed to finish the program.  I discovered it wasn’t the same program. The name had changed, none of the old instructors appeared to be there, and one of the hardest classes I’ve ever taken in my life was not even going to count toward my certificate. That and the fact I had to pay a readmission fee was almost enough to turn me off. Alas, my inner smart girl got the better of me. I want to learn to code web pages. Not for a job change or anything, but more for personal enrichment. Since coding has a common thought process, I can see how it will help me in my job in the way I’d write scripts to automate processes and who doesn’t want to make their lives easier.

So, I signed up, paid my fees and I’m in there. Classes start Monday and I’m picking up at Web II.

I’m really excited and nervous at the same time. Yes, I’ve been doing some HTML/CSS since 2012, but to be back in class, behind a computer will be different. My goal is to get more into web development and dive into the LAMP stack with the Server-Side Web Development – PHP + AJAX class.  I hope to learn enough to move this blog over to my own hosted site and maybe learn to make themes or at least make them look and feel like I want them to.

I hope to post more updates as I progress through the class.  Stay tuned!

 

 

 

This Ninja is for keeps

As a card carrying member of the Vitamix family, I soon discovered that the little Magic Bullet I purchased for workplace smoothies wasn’t going to be able to keep up with my demands. Today, I ventured out and purchased a Ninja BL600. This bad boy has 1100 watts of power, well over the 250 watts the Magic Bullet was churning out.

The sale price at Target was $111, on sale from $149! I also had a $5 gift card to boot. #WINNING

  
To get back down to my pre-VMware weight, I had to get serious about the calories I’d been consuming and straighten up. Since I’m recovering from shoulder surgery, I don’t grocery shop much & I cook even less. Smoothies are a quick meal and easy to prep for.
Today’s smoothie of the day #SOTD is a veggie blast!

  • Carrots
  • Lemon 
  • Spinach 
  • Strawberry
  • Chia seeds
  • Vanilla whey protein powder 
  • Unsweetened almond milk
  • Ice 

  
This Ninja is not to be played with. Not a carrot chunk or half blended spinach leaf to be found.  I wish I would have dropped the dollars sooner for a workplace blender! This is worth the investment.

  
So long Magic Bullet!!!

  

Junk Drawer Purgatory!!

I’m turning a half year older and I’m celebrating

I had a 40 1/2 birthday party a few years ago and guess what, I’m having another half birthday. I’m grown, I eat my dessert before dinner, I can do whatEVER I want to do. My huzzband on the other hand is so sick of my shenanigans! I’m laughing as I type this because he thinks it’s the lamest thing ever.  Well, he’s not invited!  Ole’ stick in the mud!

Anyway, hot yoga is on the menu. I’m having my party at a hot yoga studio with.. you guessed it, hot yoga on the menu. My favorite studio in Philly, Diamond Hot Yoga is where we’re going to get bendy, detox in the heat and retox after the class is over.  We’re having a meet & greet before the 60 minute class. We’re keeping to 60 minutes for all of the newbies that will be trying hot yoga for the 1st time. We don’t want anyone passing out. Then, on to the retox! Wine, craft beer, exceptional cheeses and olives from DiBruno’s, green juices made by yours truly, healthy salads, hors’ d’oeuvres, cupcakes from the one and only Philly Cupcake and plenty other snacks, drinks and foods to keep the yogis happy!

Supporting local business while having a great time with friends and family!

I can’t wait!

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